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Sunday, August 6th, 2006
4:45 pm	A Tribute to the most remarkable lady in the world. Lim Soo Lan (1931-2006) Lim Soo Lan is my grandma and she has done so much in her life, much more than I'll ever do. I miss her very much, but with all my intelligence, money and life, tears and heartaches, I could never bring her back into my life. Born in 1931, she was one of the luckiest ones as her family was rich. She survived the Japanses Occupation in a big house accompanied by a series of tunnels. But who would have thought that her life would be so hard on her when she grew older. She was not given the chance to study, unlike her younger sister, and amazingly, she could speak all sorts of dialect, Hokkien being one of them, Japanese, English, Chinese and even Malay! It makes me wonder, given that skill, had she had the chance to study, would her life had been better? She was married to my grandfather who I have not had the chance to see, but I heard he was a drunken man, so life must have been tough. But he died early, and she had to single handedly take care of 7 children (2 boys and 5 girls). She brought them about and to the church where she earned her living by sweeping the floor. She managed to ensure all her children at least get a secondary education and she moved into Commonwealth Crescent, a small apartment with only 2 rooms and one living room. She also helped to babysit neighbourhood kids, one of whom I know is a lovely girl who graduated from university and already gotten married and have never forgotten my grandmother. Of course, I can't know much more of what happened in the past, she never said beyond all these, but I know it was never easy on her. I mean I can't even handle a few students now, let alone 7 in the same house and raising them. Anyway, the next generation arrived and so did I. I was posted to Fairfield Methodist. But my dad bought a house in Bukit Batok which meant I had to get up at a crazy 5am everyday. To prevent that, I moved in with my grandma and stayed with her along with my sister. She would faithfully wake up every morning, for the next 8 years at 530-6am to prepare breakfast for me. I was never late because of her. She always dote on me and gives me the allowance I needed, giving me extra when I requested for it, never questioning suspiciously if I was trying to ask for more than neccessary. Her wallet was always full. I admit I did take some notes to buy comics when I was in Primary 2. She would never know the difference cos there was so many notes anyway. Maybe she knew, but she never exposed me. She rarely get upset with me, only once when I was made to kneel down. The occassion was so rare itself that the kneel incident was all I remembered. I can't even remember the reason for it. There was always food. I never felt hungry at all. Be it at night, in the day, in the wee hours of the morning, she would make dishes as long as my sister and I would say we are hungry. She never complained about us eating at night. Even when she doesn't cook, she would have stuffed us with money to ask us to buy food from the nearby hawker. She was encouraging too. I never gotten a scolding for any results for tests and exams. My dad on the contrast was strict and I even got beaten for failing spelling in Primary 2. But my grandma was full of nice words. She would say, "It doesn't matter what results you get, as long as you tried your best, that is good enough for me." Sometimes I did do my best, but sometimes I was lazy and I felt guilty about my poor grades. But she would never judge me. In fact all the way to university, when I was indulged in fantasies of being a professional tennis player instead of finding a normal job like a teacher. She would be the only one in the world who would say that she would support me in whatever I do. She would tell me that there are many people who are successful in life even if studying is not their forte. So she would fully support me if I refused to study in uni. I went to university anyway. And became a teacher. But she was also happy with the path I took. To her, it was never about what I do. It was more about if I was happy. When I smiled, she would laugh too. She liked seeing our family being happy and close. I was always a smart alec and loved to argue at home, she would laugh at my "smart" comments and said I should be a lawyer since no one can win me in arguements. Even then I had to argue back. I told her the law course was tough, so I'm not going to study that and she would laugh. I really wished that I could have won a tennis tournament and be able to tell the whole world how much credit to her that I could do something I liked and excel in it because of this wonderful grandmother, but now I can't. She's left and I miss her so. I always did tell her I would die young and it would be good cos I won't have to feel the pain of any of my relatives dying. But she couldn't wait for me to go first and this heartache is hurting me. I'm in pain. I miss her. I really do. I hope that whereever she is, she would be happy and remember me like the way I remember her. I miss you grandma. I really do. Current Mood: sad (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
11:14 pm	I smell like a prawn!!!! I'm tired, sad and irritated and now I smell like a prawn!!!!!! Why? Cos my mom must have left the clothes in the house and fried some prawns cos the fragrance of that is stuck in my t shirt!!! Now I have changed my T shirt and I'm busy spraying all over myself with scented spray!! Anyway, my new life is very hectic and I'm been very busy... if i managed to type out all that made me busy would show that I'm not that busy cos I have time to type all that... so I'm not going to do so... But recent news... I've reached my first third round at the tournaments and my ranking will move up!!! But i crashed out due to lack of fitness...the 7th seed played smart tennis and made me run like a dog, with dropshot, followed by lobs... etc... in fact the turning point was one point whereby I saved 4 dropshots and 3-4 lobs before i finally was unable to run for the last dropshot... And i was exhausted and unable to run for the rest of the match.... Anyway, saw SILAS on webcam!!! So cool!!! Chatted a while before we ended... :) My grandma is back in hospital again and sigh... wish she would get better...she doesn't even recognise me... I'm so sad... she always supported me in whatever I wanted to do... :( Will update next time... got work to mark and test to set... Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 29th, 2006
4:27 am	Difference in students... It has been a hectic lifestyle since I was posted to the new Secondary school and all I want to say is that the students are rather different here... Will post more the next time... Right now my throat is about to burst cos I had consecutive lessons with only one 30 mins break. Current Mood: sick (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 5th, 2006
9:14 pm	These hectic days... 2nd June... I went to the ITE field trip and the lecture was typically boring ... more like brainwashing and a very hostile speaker who kept using the statement..."I thought you all are teachers???" COME ON!! We are human, not Living Encyclopedia!!! :rolleyes: However, the walks around the school was nice... I really wished I studied there... though the starting pay after you graduate...could be a huge problem... (1.5k only ! eek!) Anyway, I went for the Sports Management one... we were shown a person with wires attached to him and the computer shows reading and all... heartbeat..etc.. so cool!!! ... when you graduate from this course ...you can work for sports council!!! cool!!! :) The next one was even more superb... it was the nursing course... there we see mannequins with heartbeats, blinking eyes and blood! It is to test the trainees's skill at handling sudden situations... 5 student would be placed in the fake room with the mannequin and the room is already programmed for something to happen... what the five people do or say would be recorded while the others will watch on the outside and give comments... if only there was one for teachers... then i can handle all scenarios... :p the final one was rather cool also as i always had a secret desire to be able to fix things.. hehe.. it was a place where students learn how to design filters for a swimming pool, handle the alarm system in case of fire (sprinkler)... i see wires and I'm inspired... ;) overall the trip was nice and the school is like a new huge mall!!! the only draw back was climbing up the stairs!!! OMG!! now i know how the vending machines earns money!!! After the tour, I ate some food from the buffet provided and suspects that gave me the horrible stomachache I had in the same night... sigh the retributions of being greedy!!! After the ITE trip, I decided not to go out with my other NIE friends, so I gave XQ a ring and asked if he was free for a movie and he was!!! So I took a bus there (YES a real bus... not BUS #240) and then I spent the rest of the time chatting with him while waiting for his friends to finish practising dance... After that we went to town and OMG!! He's very reckless and impatient, he would just dashed past the red lights!! He did many SM too! hahahah... like when his CD player was playing "BAD DAY" and his friends were like I like that song... and he clumsily just put to random... and his friend was like "Thanks huh?" hahahhah... and he din even know what he did!!! PLaza Sing. has the worse carpark ever and we accidentally entered a level and had to go down cos the design is that if you choose to enter a level, you can only go down... so the best way is to go all the way up and move your way down!... Stupid design!! Obviously done by a person who hated to find carpark! :p After that, we ate more stuffs, before watching the movie which was light and easy...(I'm planning to watch less heavy stuffs on cinemas now.. so I don't have to think so much!) and then to the PC fair at suntec... I HATE CROWDS!!! I hate going into a sea of people and bumping into every single person and doing an aimless search... cos there was no proper map and everything was random!!! :rolleyes: After a long headache, XQ decide to buy this really stylish speakers which is so freaking cheap!!! (but I wished they had white colour), before we ended the day for a meal at Hans... Not a very nice place... no wonder it was the least crowded place... even less crowded than food court!! I think I wrote too much... maybe tomolo I'll write about my feelings of tennis and the saturday outings... :p Nitez! Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: Hips don't Lie (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
6:01 pm	My turn to be a student again... There has been a few things that I've been wanting to do since I've finished my University studies... One of which was to look for this band teacher who I've totally lost all contact of... I mean she no longer teaches in my alma mater and it would not be easy to find her unless there's such a thing as a www.bandconductorinsingapore.com right? But things have been swirling and in a rush, I've entered the work force so soon and had virtually no time off. So today was this CCA talk which was boring and kinda not helpful and all, but the speaker was in charge of all the music part of CCA, so I thought, so why not give it a try, perhaps she knew.. I went up to her after the lecture and asked if she knew where i could find her.. and she had her handphone number!!! But she could not give it too me and took my particulars instead... And my band teacher just called and had a little chat with her!!! OMG!!! I feel so much like a student all over again... She was rather strict yet, I remember her being patient and was kinda nice to me despite me being one of those untalented players... hehe.. Sadly, our band missed getting the gold award (silver instead) and it was rather a sad year... not to mention one of the teachers in charge also died in the same year... I recall my junior said that despite me being a senior but with no role in the committee, I was a much better role model due to my high attendance and the fact I've never complained and always helped out if I could... Perhaps, my junior exaggerated the statement, or perhaps she never said it at all, but if she did, I'm glad that my hard work was noticed... :) Sigh.. I guess this means moving on in my life since I've fulfilled one of the many things I wanted to do in my life after Uni life... Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 28th, 2006
12:18 am	Lost dreams.... I just sent my sister off... she's going to Europe for the next two weeks!!! Lucky girl! Paris would be crowded due to Frecnh Open... Anyway, she'll be there to do sight seeing... (I would faint if she went to see the tennis instead)... I'm feeling a bit low... I guess it should be me going off at the airport every week, moving to a new destination and playing my favourite sport week in and out... I wonder... would I have made many friends on tour? Or would I be all alone, moving about in locker rooms and hotel sitting all alone... But I'll never know... cos i'm a teacher now.. and the next 3-4 years of my life would be dedicated to that.... Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 27th, 2006
1:12 pm	Fatigue causes me to be blur.... Today I woke up and saw that my clock showed 10 O clock so I rushed out of my home and went for tuition... and I reached and realized that two students were not even there... then i saw on my handphone that it was 930am instead....so embarrassing! I'm such a big bozo.... (PS: maybe I got time warping powers... :p) Current Mood: embarrassed (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
11:18 pm	Holidays makes me even more tired than ever!!! Today was my last day for maths lesson... after that I would embark in a series of field trips before I go to Kranji for good... Been busy lately...yesterday, I went to Wild Wild Wet with XQ, SH and Alwyn... had fun there especially with the wave... which whacked me and made me unable to stand up!!! I was roasted and turned super dark... hahahah... then XQ drove into town and OMG... he is rather good in driving (minus slope...yikes!!!), but in terms of directions.. he's NEW and quite blur!!! lolz.... I accompanied him to walk a bit before his friends arrived....he was playing some tennis game at the arcade and some kids challenged him... the kid used Haas and hit tons of short ball (Something which Haas would never do!!!!) and won him... Then I went to eat some ice cream and ordered brownie ice crea instead of ice cream on brownie!!!! Thanks to a super mixed up from XQ's advice!!!! :fiery: then at night I went out with my sis and mom....I could hardly sleep and then I finally fell asleep at 4-5am...struggled to go for maths and then i did tons of tuition... Along the way, I met two students from CHRSS and chatted very little with them... nice to see them and all... but I guess that would be the last few times since I won't be travelling to woodlands often... I'm so tired now and I would fall alseep if it wasn't for the fact that I want to play!! Lost my "The Emancipation of Mimi" and "Glitter" CD... sobz... Oh yah!!! The up side is that LWP answered my message!!!! What an honour and she wrote a lot in response to my long message!!! hahahahah she's so nice!!! :) She even gave me advice on how to hit a forehand!!! :p I can't wait to try it out!!! Current Mood: excited Current Music: Hollerback girl (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
4:10 pm	My poor hands!!! Today, I went for my first tennis lesson since a long time and after that I suffered great pains on my hands so much that I could no longer rally with my other friends who came later. Went with SH around to Parkway parade for lunch and plenty of walking about. Some nice lady offered to allow me to go first in the queue if I took care of her groceries while she picked something up and of course I did! :p Lots have happened in the past few days, my poor computer was spoilt and it costs me $$$ to get it fixed!!! I watched the "Da Vinci Code" and I wasn't so impressed with it and secretly think it is related to tennis... (with Paris, London, Sophie, Silas, Mary, Magadalene...etc) all names and venues of tennis!!! and the actor acting as Silas was former "Wimbledon" champion!!! :p Been so tired lately that I hardly go online... wonder if this feeling would pass... never mind, I plan a lot for next week... hopefully I enjoy myself... Will stop now... my hand hurts... Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: None... cos my computer reformatted... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 14th, 2006
7:33 pm	Rain, rain ... but the tennis goes on... Yesterday, I played tennis with so many people and I wasn't really playing very well, so I did not really enjoy myself.. Here are some results: NEW/XQ bt CM/Alwyn: 6-2 NEW/BL bt Norman/KM: 6-0 NEW/KM bt CC/BL: 6-3 NEW/Norman bt KM/CC: 6-0 NEW/CC bt Normam/KM: 6-4 (BL retired at 1-0) Yes... I seems to have won everything, but I'm not very happy with the way I played and I'm still very lost on court... no plans, lousy volleys...etc... I wonder how long before I reach the next stage? Current Mood: tired Current Music: A long walk - Jill Scott (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 6th, 2006
9:23 pm	Yesterday was the Maths Exam!!! and my last day,,, for real... unless i get posted back...:x Yesterday was the Maths Exam and I must say... whether I am a teacher or not, it was EASY!!!! (I bet I could score 90% and above when I was in Sec 2 ...:p)  I know my class will kill me for saying that, but I think they will do well. They have low esteem of themselves and I don't know why as they are the best class of their batch... Maybe I did not instill enough confidence in them...  Anyway, I went up to see if all had calculator after the first paper and I was swamped with last minute questions on how to solve this or that...etc...I hoped the questions they asked were relevant!So that was my official last teaching session I guess... hehe... I keep predicting my last session of teaching and I end up teaching one more time again and again... hahah...  After the last paper, I went up with Raabiya to take photos with the class and it was horrendous as predicted. It was hard to manage them and in the end, the class was split into two. The girls with Raabiya and me photo and the guys with Raabiya and me photo. Even then, some of the students were missing. -_-"  Nevertheless, all the action can be seen at :  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yrQOn2XekBY  under the brillant editing and producing by Mastura, a smart girl from the class!!!  (To Mastura: My friends are all giving rave reviews to the video, you might want to consider becoming a director next time... If you do...hire me hor... as one of those who keep running from the murderers in those horror flick...hehe... *Imagines myself banging on the door screaming for help... or throwing textbooks at the kller to delay him/her..*)  Anyway, I gave them the "collon" and "hello panda" I bought on sunday and surprisingly, unlike the KSS students, they did not litter the class... hahahah...  Then, we left school and I went home to take the world's shortest nap before setting out to meet Raabiya and Jocelyn at City Hall. OMG. The worse part of the day. Being unable to decide where to eat. WE SPENT AT LEAST 1 HOUR, searching for a place. They are so undecisive!!! "Too expensive!" "Too common!" "Not nice".... ARGHHHHHH!!! It was so bad that I told them that if I had a rope now, there would be two dead bodies!!!!  We finally decided to eat at Breeks, and perhaps have chocolate fondue later, but it never happened and we end up walking about and laughing while taking tons of crazy photos...  As the taxi stands were full, we had to take MRT home and we were very tired and decided to sit on the side of the sticker which said "Give the seats to someone who needs it more" cos we state that since we don't face the sticker, so what we don't see, we don't know, so we no need to do... :p  and I was pretending to sleep at every station so that I need not see people who need the seats more than me and needing to give up the seats to them... hahaha... Jocelyn and Raabiya had to give the clear signal before I could "wake up"...  And we ended the day by playing a stupid guessing game on the MRT train... the game was that one of us see something and the other two must guess what it is, to help us we can ask yes/no questions only like is it green in colour...etc... And we were rather crappy and I asked questions like is it skin in colour and is it round (Think of what I think they might be seeing... :p) ... making Jocelyn and Raabiya laugh their heads off...  The answers were:  Jocelyn: Floor  Me: The north east sign which is in purple... hahahah  Raabiya: Newspaper (Jocelyn asked can you wear it, and Raabiya answered yes... hahahah)  Jocelyn: The Metallic oval shape thing on the wall of the MRT! (Evil! But I guessed it.. :p)  After that, I went home and it was back to a well deserved trip to Snooze City!!! Current Mood: sick Current Music: Shakira - Hips don't lie (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
11:06 pm	Today was my last day?? Am I happy? Today was my last day teaching 2/2 and as usual, it was rowdy, but I pushed ahead with the lessons and ended by telling the class more about myself. Later on, I wasted my precious energy reliefing a class which tested my patience till I totally lost it and shouted at them. Students just want teachers to make them stand up. Something about the vertical positioning of bodies make students much quieter, I must consult my dear Biology friends about that! :rolleyes: Anyway, later in the afternoon, the class had a farewell for me which was kinda weird since I'm officially gone on friday, but it was nice and fun. I made Raabiya stay and we enjoyed our farewell with whatever was left of 2/2. There was a cake and it was a chocolate cake. I honestly dislike chocolate stuffs except chocolate, but how was the class suppose to know? But the gesture was nice and that's all that matters. Well, it is the end for me here soon. And honestly, I want a fresh new start. but I have a 50% chance of coming back. So I dunno if I should count my chicks before they hatch. I think I messed things up really bad, thus I want to start anew. Let the countdown begin. Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 1st, 2006
1:09 am	I lost as expected ... Lousy tennis player!! But OMG I have some nice students!!! I was playing one of the worst matches in my life and losing... becoming one of the biggest disgrace to the ranking system since I'm seeded... I was not positive enough and could have fought more... but I just did not do enough... :( Just when I changed my nick to indicate what happened today and becoming a poor role model since my students have my MSN.. I received tons of encouragements... not just from friends but from students!!! Who said you can't learn from the younger ones? ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ LH: "You're not.... have more confidence in yourself...it's okay... at least you tried..." KS: "I don't think I tried hard enough...aint the teacher suppose to encourage the student instead?" LH: "den try more next time...teacher is human...also need encouragement..." :) ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ KZ: "...don't feel that way.. don't give up.. this time round no matter how hard you lose, the next time you just try to play better. even though if you dont win the next round but you know you tried your best" KZ: "...i just wanted to cheer you up and tell you not to give up in whatever you do." KZ: "...okay, gtg byebyebyebyebyebye. smile and takecare. YOU'RE A GREAT TEACHER!! [:" KS: "no lah....you havent seen the best yet...that's why....hope you get some great ones!!!" KZ: "do you know, you print all those worksheets and stuffs for us, and no other teacher does ithat. you encourages us. you share your thoughts and stuffs with us. 2/2 is sucha horrible class and yet you tolerated us and did whatever you can to help us., GREAT TEACHER OKAY! and i dont hope to get a great teacher. cause you';re alr one -.- ...... okay la.. you're a great man. seriously.. and no matter what you do you have my support! heheh! dont give up. smile, and God is always there! (: cheerios. tata! nights.." __________________________________________________________________________________________________ I'm definately touched..there are some more sms... which I think I'll quote some tomolo... :) Current Mood: touched Current Music: These Words (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
11:16 pm	Wow!!! Should I cut and paste???!!! It's been ages since I posted in this blog... But I did update the other blog... so I was wondering should I cut and paste the entries from the other blog here? Nah, I shan't. Anyway, I can't believe that my last entry was that I found out I was posted to another school. Well, today it's about that period of time, I move on... most likely a new school again. I wonder what school I'll get... Anyway, to update this blog... I have two classes ... 2/2 and 3/3... And I've been very busy... Worksheets doesn't fly from the sky... I make some of them... Books to mark, stuff to print, papers to use are my own... All gonna end as the Mid Year is coming... I hope I did not leave a big mess for my CT to clean up... Today was rather special as I did not teach at all so I did not see any of my students except one who was running around trying to get some drinks for others... In the end, I got a home economics cake and I must say... it was rather delicious... and it's made... :) Time to work... summary to make!!! Current Mood: tired Current Music: We belong together - Mariah Carey (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 4th, 2006
1:51 am	I miss my students.... Today, the posting is out and I discovered that I was sent to a faraway place... Techinically by distance it should be okay...however, by realistic fact, I need 15 mins to walk to the train station, 15-20 for the train trip (inclusive of wait time) and another 15-20 minutes of bus ride (inclusive of wait time and the school's too far to walk from the train station...) Apprarently, the people who did the posting assumed teachers are some kind of magic creatures who can fly in a straight line.... The hurtful part is that I won't be able to see/teach the 2005 Sec 3 now 2006 Sec 4 students in KSS. I miss them very much and I hope all the best for them... They were my first students and the best kids I've ever seen... sure, their studies are not the best, but their attitude makes a whole lot of difference... Why must heaven play such cruel tricks on me...to have know such nice kids only to take them away from me... Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Monday, December 19th, 2005
10:21 pm	Back and glad!!! Just got back from some religious retreat in Thailand for 7-10 days and I'm so happy to be back... All the restrictions were driving me nuts, I had sleepless nights and when I could sleep, I get nightmares sometimes... Anyway, it is all over... Bought the O3 racket today and am pleased with it despite it being midplus instead of oversized. Kuan kindly accompanied me and we played tennis in the late afternoon. NEW bt Kuan: 6-4, 6-4. It was very close, there were some deuces.. I could just throw my racket down with the missed opportunities. In fact, I only converted after missing 3 match points says a lot. There were only 4 breaks of serve in this entire match. I got my results and it wasn't too good, but it wasn't too bad... I got no Cs and plenty of Bs and one A minus. And as expected, my English communication was my weakest subject. Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
10:09 pm	I attended a wedding... Today was the wedding of XR and SF. I was invited and I attended my first wedding. It was quite not what I expected. I mean I watched a lot of movies and TV and MTV and it seems longer than usual, but it was nice and kinda touching. :) I also got to hear a special performance by the ACJC choir and oh my... they were spectacular! They were controlled and had great voices.. Later, I spent the afternoon eating with my ex-classmates and getting to know how they are... Most of them are so successful now.. I can't imagine that that was the class of 3C/4C way back in 1996/1997..Times flies.. Well, I'm not in a rush to get married cos i wanna concentrate on my work... I think already 3-4 people have done so.. Partly is because I haven't found "the one" yet! In the afternoon, I played tennis and poor BL fell while chasing a BH DTL shot from me!... so the match ended as NEW leads BL 6-2, 3-3 ret. Just to combine everything though the themes are different... BL and I had a fun time in the swimming pool yesterday floating on a raft and sliding down a tunnel...etc.. and we watched the new harry potter movie which I must say is a disappointment.. And two days ago was my community service project and to summarise, I sucked at kayaking and was I was capsized when a strong rain came and I destroyed my handphone!! :( Also, I'm a terrible swimmer...I was like not moving despite swimming towards another kayak ... We picked up litter on this deserted island and we saw tons of rubbish... we hardly even went deep into the island... I can't understand why does a deserted island which doesn't even have a single sheltered place have rubbish like motorcycle helmet, shampoo and tennis ball!!! And we were kinda trapped when a second wave of strong rain came and the students had to huddle together while we used the unused trash bags to cover(i brought sweater, so I din have to do it)... the second storm was bad and a tree even snapped and the girls screamed in horror... finally it all ended, but my arms are all aching... but it's all over... finally over... Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
10:01 pm	Is this right? Sometimes when you're down, your friends stay with you and you're grateful. Sometimes they can't and you feel understanding as they could be busy. However, have you ever reached a point where you're just pissed at someone close? I don't mean hate, but just irritated. This is really gonna be hard cos as a friend, he/she gets this wildcard in your mind that he/she gets special treatment cos you'll be more tolerant. I still feel that my quick temperedness is still inside me and it has never left... Just now it kinda erupted.. I hate this...I'm so annoyed now... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Cranberries - Dreams (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005
1:14 am	I'm gonna bite... I have finally begun to break down from my brave front... every little thing is beginning to irritate me... i'm getting crabby and so i say to all my friends... watch it... I'm so worried about my grandma... I'm waiting for my sister's call... Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Fly like a bird - Mariah Carey (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 21st, 2005
1:13 am	Finally... getting my holidays... I had a hectic and terrible week last week... i had to juggle family problems with my work and although, my work is finally done... the family problem is still around... Anyway, yesterday, we went out to celebrate SH's birthday and it was at a place where they serve a lot of meat... after all the eating... i think i would have gained some weight! then we went bowling.. where i won one with a 133 and finished a tied second with a 101 (colin won that with an impressive score ~ 170-190)... then i went back and felt bored and wanted to do something different, so i got down to join alwyn and colin and kelvin and ryan we were stuck at happy before we got to another place... today, i played tennis with colin and alwyn... we all want to improve... colin was demanding to learn more shots to add to his trickyness... alwyn wanted to be more accurate (though his bh is definitely back!) and i needed to hit more fh shots... after that we went for a dip and dinner... i felt a bit bad for colin's friend who was very quiet... while we indulged ourselves with tennis, tennis and more tennis talk!! Anyway...just to add... i ended my run with a 6-1, 6-0 loss in the second round... sad... but i was too lousy.. can't even reach many shots my opponent hit... oh well... time to move on... Current Mood: lethargic (2 Comments |Comment on this)